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Monday, October 27, 2014

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Try less and just say U will do it instead. The would "try" brings with it a weakness... Your like allowing yourself to take a rain check before you've even started so you won't have the same energy in the intention. But U know that already DONT u? Well it's important to remember that anything you want to do can be accomplished in its time in your way but it can and will as long as your want hasn't diminished by the forces that try to discourage or simply difficulties and those are all making the journey much more rich with all sorts of other lessons me discoveries for your lifelong voyage so it's like a blessing... I remember ppl telling me that but now I get it and I hope I explained it better than they did. Lol. I think I'm a good explainer but a lot of times ppl just have to learn it their way on their own. That's not my truth for human nature BC I hope that someone that communicates to U whatever lesson is saying it in a way that it's your language... The same thing can be said in so many ways that I hope the right ppl are paired up to discuss life and sometimes how they say it can really spark something in U when its the right time, having has such n such experiences in your life to apply it with the visuals it's so strange yet when u think about it, try to open and expand on it. So many times it sounds like a broken record. So it doesn't move U so much.. Like being a teen and hearing the rules I actually followed them more than you'd like to think. I just didn't like the dress code clones they tried to make of us BC it's like making us look so dorky! The skirt to the knee was the worst look for me! I seriously looked like a Mormon like that. So we got to wear khaki pants and we could buy from a brand like Gap or whatever and U wanted to get the right ones that U liked. And they were but then they would shrink in the wash and look short which wasn't cool back then and I would wear sneakers or sketchers and imagine what a dork I still looked like w a polo ... So I would wear rings. And ribbons in my pony tail, & dye my hair w kool aid and be about stationary like Hallo Kitty to write my friends notes. I stated a lot of trends in those days, unintentionally. Clips on both sides of my hair then everyone was doing it... We would wear band aids on our legs when we didn't even have cuts but cuz they were neon they were a fashion statement we could get away with. Great memories. Anyway. Life is much more tough now than it was. It's good to relax but so much to do and keep track of... It's like we all need a manager right? Not just me? Lol I seriously could benefit from one. When you have a job that doesn't fluctuate much, U know how to get the deeds done cuz they are the same or similar over n over... But when your an idea person or a designer or an artist it's things that you don't know how to do all the time so it's your job to explore or figure things out like mcguiver and it keeps it fresh project to project I know but you look at life and the future seems a bit more fearful I guess and I hate to say it but it's like where am I going? And U just keep going... That's all U can do lol. Ppl get married, have babies and do life like they should and I just look at it like a blank canvas that doesn't have any visual to figure and I'm or we are supposed to fill that in w our imagination... That's what a vision board does and having a vision creates a want and an intention a guide to get U where u want and to fill the dreams you intend for. I know this is sorta how it works BC it's worked for certain things. If u look at your life, U can find that U got a lot of what U wanted cuz u just did, somehow it's like a dream come true... It's a hell of a force that exists within us and anoungst us and  it's so powerful that we must know we are responsible for guiding the power and thinking of what we want cuz we are creators of our realities. I say realities BC it's also how we interpret the story as opposed to what occurred in the big picture and U can swallow your story however which way you'd like... U can choose to remember the bad parts or the better ones that if u do u can find the feeling of gratitude. That's a strong positive reinforwcement for your insides to align more accurately with the power of what U want. If not it can distort and you can dwell on that and bring that closer to U like a similar energy your juggling with. I thought like I was undeserving of some of the things that happened to me so I thought about them a lot and how unfair the incident was and how sad and what a victim of it and that sadness I went toward was addictive! Like an excuse or a story I made more permanent the more time I spent there. I liked crying cuz I felt it was beautiful, I felt like I was the good guy who got hurt by a bad guy and I thought to myself how lucky and good it felt to know I was in the good guy spot and how I ratherwd than being in the bad guys place BC then I'd be wrong and the one who has to live with hurting someone. I liked living in the place of knowing I didn't harm one I was harmed and for that I was a better person and the pain was real so I couldn't get over it BC of my ego... My ego was one that was never to be treated that way and I was not  aware that the sooner I move on the better.// your focus has to change and that was hard to do BC of the pattern I got myself into. 
Mostly I was living as a bad example to my younger cousins. Friends I had couldn't take the state I was in. Nobody could tell me the right thing I needed to hear for me to get out of it and really I was alone in the circumstance cuz everyone else has their life, their other story and their battles that they have to deal with and I can't say mine was more painful but I can say that I chose to swallow it so very slowly and I was in that stupid place for as long as I wanted to be there for. That's a very stupid situation but it's understandable but what's key to this is knowing that that was my choice to interpret it as I did. Every situation is what u make of it is another annoying lil saying ppl say cuz it's not referring to this its just referring to life events and I think it's more about how U deal w life events... U can look on the bright side and be easy going and see a problem as a challenge or U can also avoid it and try your hardest to in the end just make it more difficult lol. So annoying to sound like a teacher about that! So I don't like that saying BC let's say your trying to follow the saying so U want to have a great day... Let's say UR in a plane. Now u want to make the best of it so UR nice to your neighbor. U try not to think about how uncomfortable U are in the worst seat design known to man so U choose to think about how many millions of ppl have to do the same and how it's actually pretty funny... Blah Bla Bla and make the most out of your time on the flight. But it's just truly annoying the whole time!!!! It's making U pay for a meal now. The time on that plane is going by so slow, UR so trying to find a way to sleep somehow and it's just all wrong, the ppl talking. The baby crying, one guy farted, the desicion if to have a drink or stick to water cuz it's better for U and saves U $ U end up getting a drink cuz it makes the flight more fun. You entertain yourself by going through all the radio channels, reading two entire magazines, writing a to do list. And unfortunately only networking w the lottery of who your seated next to. One day maybe they will pair us by facebook likes LOL. And a plane the same size could appear bigger w a clear rooftop to see the clouds and the wall at your side could be covered w a pillow, the tray will be able to move in more ways like a GPS stand, the halls will be two lanes for passers by, and we still won't be satisfied l. So what u do then is remember how perfect things are now. Might be cool to know a lil bit about who UR flying with if we could say a lil something we want to share not our profile it's too much information. Just what u do or something.. Where UR going in that city that U would cab share things like that.. It would make a plane have a social feature for connecting as a feature. Just a silly thought for now but I would be interested to use it to promote my store, it's our own right to advertise ourselves in a way to strangers we aren't allowing a chance to get to. Many probably would use it especially someone with fame unless maybe that guy from Elf lol not even Chelsea Lately would. But an up and coming or a person who wants to create a positive image. If we could share a humanitarian issue we could share awareness by only sharing it in the square of our own seat, equal boxes that allow us to reflect a commentary or our BUISNESS could turn into a gimmick along side Kickstarter for those who are curious to know we could make a difference within that flight time frame and then when getting our bags be more connected through a topic therefore making it more pleasurable to stand together eliminating the awkward silence and feeling accomplished about the flight in the case that we gained something, after all we did put it out there. It's our responsibility to make that useful and our freedom to choose not to. Everything remaining PG and publicly allowed would eventually lead to rules that define our freedom of what to say and how many characters long a space. It's just a thought. It's just also a way to evolve w what we say there so that it's of the moment. Changing. And it could be a funny thing to write about in the case it works out for something. Cuz limited to one person or two U sit next to is limiting your ability to see and reach somebody who is more valuable for you to connect with and we all pass by one another in the streets and in the transportation system with no sense of connection. With earphones on or texting BC we have to do something that puts us in a box and gives each other their space and we steal a state to judge them for what we interpret them to be.. And unavoidable prejudice inflicted. How much money they have, are they better than me, even if they have nice things we look for a flaw like thinking up a word to assume they are say insecure cuz they felt uncomfortable when U were looking.. Or she's a snob cuz she didn't get up
For the elder or the vibes of citizens exhausted and drained and unhappy. But if we had entertainment we may like or not like it we may not be in the mood, we may not have any loney to give... But maybe it brings us together or a smile to a tough day.. And we get to hear that ladies laugh... And it's contagious so U liked it and U replayed it in your head 3 times. U want to remember that. U enjoyed the organ as a man who knew how to play it was generously doing it w care when the girl kept on her headphones U slightly thought about what she was missing and if she would value it as U did. Or that the other had no choice but to hear, and that made all the difference. The poles reminded U of a stripper pole. U envisioned a quick music video,. The ladies reading glasses and how U wish u were as organized and as responsible to read the paper. The little boys feet couldn't touch the ground. The city went by us in a flash and ppl walked above us. U wish u had your bike but not right now since it would suck to carry it up all the stairs. The trains could be like traffic cars... All fully lined up and constant for the flow of always catching one. They should have ramps for us to post a bike or luggage on and it help us move uphill/ 
This is turning out to be too long.





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