Love Always…

 Nature is Love not War… and Love Heals! So what are we allowing to fly? I don’t think so. I feel better from nature than church or watching news or looking at my phone lol. I think dancing and being together with friends in nature is more important than anything the government will tell you you have to do. We should know what works for us by now and we should probably choose that. I can only choose for myself and I will. We are playing with life. It’s serious but also supposed to be a lot of good fun. I hope we can teach the next generations to choose wisely. They used to say “if someone is gona jump off a bridge, r u?” It seems like we are waiting for someone to do something while we sit in our divided boxes confused what to think. Distracted! Busy for our families and the hamster wheel of life. I stepped off and I didn’t die, I decided to take a better look from a different angle. I’m still here seeing and feeling the same things just not rushing in the illusion of the delivering of deadlines and like I’m not gona eat or something. Maybe all my usual ends aren’t being met like before or maybe I’m deciding if I even need what I thought I needed. The hair color, the nails, the shopping, the memberships, the expensive dinners & drinks. I steered toward free ways to entertain myself instead and went all natural to let my nail beds breathe and see my beautiful silver moonlights grow from my the roots of my hair. Some said they thought I looked great others said I look older… well, I am older. I’m also wiser and this is who I am without the masking. I like who I am underneath it all, I know I like beauty treatments and to change things up too. But it’s been nice to choose to do what feels right to me not just follow the norms of what society imposes. I am the opposite of a lot of what is going on… for my journey into wellness from fashion I chose to just narrow things down and see my truth at least. I finished 4 years of Probation, I did the rehabs and the guidance from multiple channels. In the end one of the best things I did was to not only choose what I chose for myself that helped me but also to SIMPLIFY my life to its absolute core. Still I had a hard time accepting the state of the world but as long as I’m ok inside of me for me I think the world will reflect that and it is changing. Sometimes it changes back and brings another challenge but I am less affected by it all bc I’m making sure to care for me and my piece of the puzzle🧩. Together we can all make it a better world bc that’s what we are here to do not whatever other BS might be preoccupied doing. Just reminding us of that. Thanks for all that you do to make this a better place for each other, You are appreciated. Be Aware! To be more useful and helpful! Healthy Happy Grateful! Make Life Great Fun! Always Teaching, Always Learning! ❤️✨

My middle finger

Burns’s but it’s my thumb instead. I’m worried it will be a whole blister… but idk! Ugh! I hurt it so bad! The hot water I poured it wrong all over my thumb. My sour sop … so emphasized! Hurting so SO much! Gosh it’s such a pain I have to absorb but burns don’t get absorbed they kinda feel worse. 

Way Up!

 I have to come and write. I can't sleep tonight. I really tried. I had a wonderful beach day hours in the sun and swimming and g=doing yoga and  even got a sunburn. I needed it. sometimes I want go and the day gets by me and I spend way too much time on my phone. like listening to Tarot cards like its really weird how much I do that now. I realize I do it a lot and then go back to playing music. It's like a weird addiction I have to say. Not feeling the best today. Like ppl are weird again. I have some new things happening but I guess it's been tough w Holidays, driving from FTL is annoying! Im all alone like in a car for a while and Im a lady, you know? Im not a lil 20 something like whatever.... if Im going to go somewhere it's gotta be worth it, gotta be like up to my standards. I have a lil taste and standards Honestly... So, Im a lil annoyed LOL ppl with their Bullshit, dirty ass places and crap I mean... Im just over dealing with a lot of it by now. LOL. I have this feeling in my soul like why aren't better ppl here yet who care? but so I offered myself... to help... the things needed sometimes happen to be what Im exactly good at. I think Im a writer. I don't care if you think this or that... it's important what U think of yourself and what you are ok with for U. Im definitely not ok w a lot of it LOL so I find I have a smaller group of friends but Im really ok with it. having too many "friends" at least for me was strange bc they weren't all my friends anyway so your trying to figure out who really is and I was just a very trusting person and wanted the most best for everyone... and if I was EVER snarky or whatever I was so just a hurt person w a pure soul underneath that. I am doing way better now. I am still trying to make the boo coup bucks without selling my soul like everyone else lol. I'm keeping my standards high and hoping u can just settle your lil ass in check mother fucker... I mean it. I can be cool but don't cross me hmmm Im holding it down. Im here to stir things up a bit. I don't have any problem with that. :)

I am happy to know you care. I am happy u got a chance to meet me hopefully and that I made a positive impact on your life. I am here to make real friends and be real with ppl and get creative I guess... I don't know I am deep, I have learned a lot and I value you and your opinion, believe it or not. Wana know what Im also a Dancer, a Healer, a very Intuitive Friend, Community Member, Visionary, Athlete, Independent Woman, and Writer,,, Im a Writer.... bc I like to write.... and never really thought I was that good enough to say "I'm a writer" but I am bc I am someone who feels... as an artist and I love words,,, I love learning, expressing myself and understanding this weird ass journey of life bc let me tell u... I wish I could just be soaring free somehow like a bird like Jenny wanted to do in Forest Gump... I said I felt like her... I don't want to end up like her. I want more for myself than that. I am going to be careful and I don't want to partake in everything. I have to follow my hearts call. I have to say OK you wana be like that... go ahead.... but I am like this and I will do what I feel is right for me. IS IT NOT>? Thank you for letting me say this. It is really important. I already feel SOOO much better. I need nature and that's about it. LOL I am nature! :;

The spy stuff is also kinda getting to me. Im really grateful though. I am. I have to go to India!!!!! or Japan!!!! or Istanbul!!! or soooo many placessss I can't wait to... please go wherever you want to go. I am the light.... please let me shine light on your path. I am not jelouse of you, I am happy for you, I am here to help you get to where you want to go. Be honest with yourself. I went to places and had to tell deep dark secrets and I went to 3 rehabs. Did you know that>? not my choice! 

Let me explain, First time I was taking pics of some "illegal immigrants" making pizza!!!!! I just thought I was taking a picture at a pizza place next door to a club was it called Rock Club>? I swear I can't even remember where I used to go bc I don't care. So upstate NY and when they tried to take my drink and phone away og=hhhhh it was a David Lynch movie. scary.

Then it was Jupiter Beach a place called Beach House that was for an incident in Key West... ugh what a nightmare. I can deal with a nightmare, I can. I just don't want to. I don't chose to watch those Investigator Drama mystery shows they all like. I do not like that!!!! I like spiritual stuff and creative stuff. 

Then again, outpatient for the same judge Judge Wilson, ughhh he's really extreme and cookoo doesn't get me... only understands who he himself is I guess. bc it was not the me me me he needed to see. So I moved to FTL, PS never wanted to but gave in to it bc of my father.... bc I don't care for the material world anymore... it's liberating to not be as into it as they want ... I did it,,, trust me I know. 

Some people will never understand... are there Billionaires new rich? study that. not trying to hate on anybody in a good place... but are they??? with that power... are they? since the system can be corrupted like IT IS... anything can then I guess. So it's really up to us to know better by now... not by ONE POINT but by a good amount of fuckingLIVING LIFE THE WAY that is closer to freedom ok? (I love this song) ((TEMPLE by Love Pass Filter))

Anyway, I want to say it isn't something to be proud of! I am like embarrassed that I had to do the stupid shit I had to do for a lot of shit actually. I wish not. don't. So I wanted to say I was only up for ONE NIGHT not a bunch of nights like everyone else.... I wasn't like other crazy friends who are AMAZING pppl by the way!!! I think that says a lot right there. & if not for u, it does for me and I don't care what your beliefs are. they shouldn't impact me like this. I am a very good lil soul who can finally say WOW OK YOU SUCK LOL to a lot of what she has seen. Not a problem... I have also seen So much that has molded me and shaped me and that I can feel inside of me... like that neighbor I had in London and the twins in Madrid and the project I won at Central St Martins, and so many special ppl I have met along the way. Real ppl. or that time when Im at a table dancing and Leonardo DiCaprio comes to the table... I pretended as if nothing LOL... and he was dating Gisele! its just like stuff like that... if I was a bad bitch I would but I don't have the need for that type of stuff. Or like Ralph Laurens son David picking me up at a Sony party! I mean... talk about dreamy stuff... I'm not kidding. I love stories. I love true stories lots. I don't have much time for fake ones at this moment in my life. I am here for the ride, with you my Ppls. WAKE UP!

Lost Beings of Hearing

To be

Los seres humanos

Losers no body to be thee!

To be wonderful humans its the plan aint it? Plant yourself pretty flowers…

Seed sprout above it

Be above it all

Graceful w bright pigmant 

Be, ser, se, eres, here it is.

Through whiskers in the sky or not

You are full of being you in your element 

All u need to do is do that you you do.

Tantalizing aromas pollen powderful

So many hues of yous yet each one of a kind.

Blues and Greens need your warmth 

Arousing demure. Surprising pop like spark 

Candy to the eye

Books written about u, bouquets of your relatives for centuries gave life to the dull graphite. Gaining wonder from Gaia mother organic organizings energy lightning. Loves you even if it falls on not. where art thou? The flowers? May Allows us & Maybe even all of us. Eden-tually oddly not to take after the mothers loom of blooms and give a hand to her at that. Wild Love to! See hue soon! Another place to look besides a book, the look of life, nature our neighbors, learning to love Earth and knowing her worth is pleasing Earth. A Moving Peace with her dances through time la vie devine, ohm mama mia. Telling all truth through ooze. Her fate greatfully appreciated finds a way to keep our faith like exclamation in a relaxation. Dont say more.

What to sei I spell it like that bc

I think its what I wana say. Oh what a night! I wanted to go so I went but cant deep end w light weights which is my free style selection! Great times are good and good times are easy… im looking for a good for me good time that is Great and masterful, no TAM wasted… its a pro grace… progressing w no sins whatsoever bc those are judgements, beliefs and I dont have the same ones as you do. My ones are a number that you dont need to know, neither does the government. They are clearly wireing us to show us that it may happen and the good ole days will be officially over. Freedom is dumb to count on like that. They are accountants and we are being insected on, is it not? What on Earth? We dont even all agree this is a ball anymore? Its a frisbee? Ok… so then? Why not? Free Be it so be it? Please ure Earths wings… fly the frequentcy with your vibration… adding in beware! We are being A way and make it your blest blessed boastful authentic way. I do as much as I can. I still get pressured, feel doubt/fear (rarely), simply want more from the world bc I dont see it all in a fair totality, I see what is given to live with and THAT is what Im talking about queens, not the real mellow drama. Vibe with me. Wherever u are I want u to be where u are bc you chose it, and to sit there w it til u realize a better way, and that nobody helps u just like me bc it sucks and it strengthens u, u eventually have to do u not bc anybody said so but bc ur nothing without knowing who you really are and who is your friend for real and your sence of ur own worth and more is for u to get closer to get clearer on… bc we love you and this journey we get to take with each other. Its ok to use tools to numb here but your not the same sane you. Your the other one and its not that Im trying to take that away from you… Im trying to simply be here loving my life living fully, incorporated with hobbies and my health and less war king 5-9 better CAUSE, si! No? Ha. Ok whatever I say must be done and so let it be so. Bada bing bada 💥 link ping damn pink pony Bruised… what a tale. Made it here no edit… fungi. 

Trust Harder...

 This whole way about me is not exactly how I expect life to go. I think it's hard to find someone to truly connect and be with for the long haul. I say to myself how I love ppl, I send my sincere love out to everyone involved, from my angels and ancestors to even yours. To be playful and honest is not my next version of me anymore so much. Im really more intro than extrovert I think. I rather learn something than be misunderstood by you and trying to prove anything. I don't feel the need to. Im not valued by everyone and Im yet aware of my value. Im really more ok w me than the rest of you. how would I know you really care for. me, believe in me, want the best in me? I don't know the truth. ppl are really holding back instead of being honest. Do you feel the same? do u like u? lets just start there. things need time. Im not a bird, I don't speak bird, but I try. do u even see the birds at all? I am proud of all of you for everything we have done. what r u planning for next? I think we are all family. I know we are. we're all somehow connected. I want to just show my respect for it all. how should I do that>? I have an opinion. maybe it's ok to keep being myself... be a light so I can find you. love all trust harder. 

I haven't written on here in a while Crocodile...

 I drove in a crazy rain storm. It wasn't normal. I will tell you that. I am super happy by the way, I kinda look at my phone too much, yes I don't want to but I used to be SO busy I never had time for that... so now I do... I think Im actually really lucky LOL like to be able to learn so many things... I rather read but its so hard to w the phone... Im addicted to Tarot card readings... I don't care about much else ... except Gaza. I do care about that but then U KNOW WHAT? I care about CUBA. We forgot about CUBA.... So YES Im pissed off at allllll of Yalll for disturbing the peace.... Good Luck To ALL The Cubans. Dont forget It’s the Cuban Link!